Alyssa's ramblings...

Mixed messages.

A year ago today, I sent an email to myself through www.futureme.org (I wrote about it here). I received it today. Here is a copy:

(this message was composed on Wed, Aug 4, 2004)

Dear FutureMe,

By now, you'll have been married for over 9 months. I can't even imagine what that will be like. At the moment, there are 79 days to go, and I'm pretty nervous. So many things are going to change within the next year.

I'm looking for a unit at the moment, and it's harder than I thought. It's very distressing, going to look at units, really liking them, then being turned down because they found someone better (or more financially viable). I'm going to look at one tomorrow, which looks fantastic, and is priced so extremely low, it's shocking. I'm excited, but know not to get my hopes up.

There were 187 people at Youth last week! I just know it's going to grow so much, and I wonder how many will be going when you get this email.

It's strange, referring to the future me in the third person. I guess it's right to do that, because the person that I will be in a year doesn't exist now. I'll be such a different person, I'm sure of it. I'll be married!

Right now, I'm feeling overwhelmed. Looking for units, organising our wedding, spending time with my fiance, working, and keeping track of all my church commitments... it's just really alot to think about. I know everything will be OK. But right now... I'm in a transitional period, I guess. Everything's changing (in a good way).

I really hope you're having fun. Take some time to yourself. Take a walk, and clear your head. Read a book, snuggled up on the couch with a hot milo. Play the piano, and sing along. Take a nice warm bubble bath.

Don't work too hard, and don't become exhausted. If you do, take a day off, and just relax.

Remember, you're so loved. You rock. :o)

I was so different back then. Everything has gone wonderfully, and all of the things I was feeling overwhelmed about turned out well in the end. I was so touched by the third-last paragraph. I’m going to do all of the things I told myself to do. I probably won’t take a day off, because I need to save up my annual leave for my baby-time. But on Wednesday the 17th we have a public holiday, so that’s just as good. :o)

I wrote myself a new one for next year, too. Imagine how much my life will have changed by then! I’ll have been married for almost two years, and have a 7-month old baby! Wow.

posted by Alyssa @ 10:25 AM